We had a huge fight here at home. My parents mostly. My mom wants my dad out of the house, she's had enough of him. I dont want to pick sides, but he acts like a child, literally. Now he says if he moves out he wont be paying the bills of this house that he pays now, and the pension that he'd be obligated to give my mom wouldnt be enought. I'm the only one employed with a salary that isnt anywhere nearly enough....
I usually stay out of the fight but when he started saying that I was so mad. I was making pasta for myself, I just throw the whole pan on the sink, boyling water and pasta everywhere. Later my brother throw a bottle of wine. I'm not the one who usually does that, but I was really mad.
I took a piece of the broken bottle and cut my left wrist, (un)fortunatelly I'm not strong enough to actually make it a deep cut. So I just took 2 sleeping pills so I could actually sleep in the yelling. It's been 12h and I'm still dizzy....
Now they want to sell the house, split the money. Where am I supposed to live? I have aunts and my grandma, but none of them live close and I cant leive my job, not matter how little it pays, it's the only one I've got.
I'm going back to sleep cause the pills havent wore off yet... - Tags:life
- Mood:numb
 - Music:Muse - Hullabaloo (CD 1) - 07 Shine Acoustic
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